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October 16 写在2006-10-15明天农历八月二十五，后天公历10月17号，都是我的生日。 昨天爸爸妈妈哥哥姐姐和奶奶都打来电话祝我生日快乐，还有只傻傻的兔子竟然记错了时间也打电话来了，她不知道(准确地说，我们都没有过阴历生日的习惯)明天也是我生日，却把今天记成了16号。一下子被这么多人祝福，幸福极了，感觉自己好像又回到了出生的那天，我是所有人的焦点，是大家的精神寄托。 想到奶奶现在在家为我的生日操劳，心里有种说不出的滋味。如果爷爷在，现在应该会在和奶奶一起忙活，可是上天总是恃强凌弱，他让奶奶操劳了一辈子，现在又让她一个人面对时光的飞逝……可是奶奶总是任劳任怨，她不会埋怨上天的不公，只会念叨，如果老头子能亲眼见见他孙子该多好。 还有几个小时，我就要结束十九岁的生活了，十九到二十，微小的变化，却让我思考了半天。是啊，二十了，不再是以前可以不顾后果尽兴玩耍的小男孩了，二十岁有二十岁的责任，二十岁应该有新的目标，等到三十岁生日的时候，我必须可以对自说，你没有丢掉过你的责任，你也没有失去你的方向。 感谢爸爸妈妈，感谢你们赐予了我多彩的生命，感谢我的家人。 感谢朋友们送我的生日礼物，感谢你们的祝福，有了你们，路才更广阔。 感谢我亲爱的兔子，感谢你送我还没有完成的十字绣抱枕，感谢你给了我这么好的你。 最后，祝自己生日快乐！ October 15 无言今天看了她的空间，又多了一篇文字，而我却不知道怎么回复……
等待是一件很可怕的事，尤其是充满期待地等待一个丝毫没有察觉到你的人，这种等待会让你的期待变得遥不可及，等到心都冷了，等待便化成泡影……而我，就是那个没有察觉的人。
我的无知又伤害了她，伤得很深，原本欢快的空间多了一份忧伤。我不会关心别人，而她是第一个让我决定改变自己，要学者关心她，保护她的人，而我却打着“还在学习关心别人，难免犯错”的幌子一次次地让她心灰意冷……
人总要学会长大，我觉得，我也应该长大了。亲爱的，以前的伤疤，我无能为力，我能做的，就是不让你在看到伤痕。
我爱你，所以，我不会让你等待，因为，你的伤痛都会疼在我心上。
October 12 When I Am Missing YouWhen I am missing you, I open your space and refresh it again and again, hoping for the emergence of a new archive or comment, though I don’t know what to reply. When I am missing you, I recall every momoent when we were together, every word you said, and every kiss we had. When I am missing you, I’d like to talk with my roommates about all the details when we were together, because only in this way can they know how much I love you. When I am missing you, I always pick my cell phone up, enter the messege box and then quit. Wanna say something but don’t know what to say, and finally with just three words – I love you. August 10 关于解除本空间语种限制的公告建这个空间的时候我想，就这么一直用英语写下去吧，一来练练英语，二来可以减少一些浏览量。不过现在看来两个目的都没有达到，英语越练越差，space迷一个也没少（路过的轻砸^^）。所以，即日起解除只能用英语写blog的限制，语种不限，文体随便，自由发挥啦... July 24 终于被点名了^ ^
July 03 I am crazy?“You must be crazy, ”, said my classmate, “You spend so much time eating snack while leaving your homework undone, which is due at 12:00 tonight!”. Yes, I’m crazy. I ran back home two days before the project of software engineering practice should be hand in. I spent a whole day playing games before I took the DB2 700 test. And I didn’t even go to our lab while all the other people are striving for the APIS project… But what makes difference if I didn’t do that? I work hard in my campus and find a good job and earn a lot of money and live a luxurious life. And what’s the next? Is it able to change the fact that I spent just 1 month with my parents? And the fact that my grandpa didn’t even catch a sight of me when he passed away? And that I disappoint all my old friends just because I have no time to say hello to them? People nowadays care too much about their work and achievements. There is no “spare time” for them to do other things, even for the children. I’m crazy, because it seems that I choose the opposite direction to the others. I choose to enjoy myself without thinking of the heavy study load. But I like crazy, which gives me the true meaning of life. June 28 Title: I'v no ideANot updating my space for a long time again. Tristi said that she would leave her footprints every day in her space. She eats her own words, obviously, and so do I. I wanna persist in it, but I really can’t. There is so many things I have to worry about. I keep doing my work without any time too write down something. And when I have, I’m too tired to keep my eyes staring at the screen. I went back home last weekend, staying two days with my parents, grandma, and my lovely niece. That’s the happiest days I’ve spent in this month. I enjoyed the ephemeral but treasurable blessedness with my family and thrown all my study and work away, without thinking of the homework which must be handed in before Saturday. I was astonished when I opened Bonney’s space. She added all the archives she wrote offline these days. And I was thinking that she’s as lazy as me when I open it yesterday! Ok, no more. There’s a exam tomorrow. And may myself succeed. June 13 Brand New StartJune 13th
The same day in the last month, I was on the bus home.
Grandpa has been dead for a month, and it's time for me to let everything unhappy go and, to "start my new life".
I changed my background music because, That's a song too sad.
I changed the subtitle of my space, because, Grandpa has became the history, like the seasons have all gone. It dosen't mean that I will not think of my granpa forever. Just, I think, Maybe I should put him in my heart, not the space.
We failed in the local final of Imagine Cup, but it really means nothing to me. We are still so young. There are still too years for us to striving for our dream. What we should do is just treasuring the failure and looking for a brand new start. June 10 First Archive In BeijingThis is the second day in Beijing.
We even didn't have a chance to go out, with no chance to have a glance at the wonderful places. There are still too much work we need to do, with our dream.
We will fight for our glory this afternoon, and it will be the one-month-commemoration of my granpa three days later. So, bless my granpa and hope for the blessing of him. June 04 DECISIONWe've been invited to the final of Imagine Cup China, top 7 of China.
Thinking about the days we gave up all the courses and fought our way to implement the project, I was grantified by our achievements. That's really a rough decesion -- to implement our imagination in only three weeks. That means we should give up all our courses and other activities, I don't wanna give up my project, but I don't wanna give my study,too. If we choose our project, The possible failure of the project will also declare the failure of our study. That's what my grandpa do not want to see.
But now, We did it! And we are gonna fight for the first place in Beking,June 10th.
We have no way knowing what lays ahead for us in the future. All we can do is, use the information at hand to make the best decision possible. May 21 One WeekIt has been one week since my grandpa passed away. Gandpa went away, without anthing to leave, and without anything to bring with. I searched my computer several times, but cannot find any vedio or audio of Grandpa, just photos. I keep thinking of my grandpa these days. Because I am scared, scared that I will forget Grandpa, scared that I will forget his voice, scared that I can't do anything to commemorate him. Everything changes, but I don't wanna see the changes of the place of Grandpa in my heart. Happy life in Heaven, Grandpa. May 17 Just Like HeavenJust Like Heaven For my grandpa The same title. I have never expected to use it again, but maybe it is the best commemoration for my grandpa, my only grandpa who went to the heaven on May 13, 2006. Grandpa has gone, so quietly, without any words to us. He was healthy, strong, and always smiling, even the day before he went away. He broke his leg three months ago, but he recovered soon. He could walk without crutch when I went back home on April 30, but he had no chance to walk out and have a look at the wonderful world… Grandpa loves me so much, and he is always the first person who calls me when I go back to school from home. He kept all my school report cards, and show them to me every time I went back home. But God brought him away so hastily, when grandpa was expecting my card for this term… I wonder whether the heaven really exists. But my grandpa, I believe, must have gone to the most beautiful world, just like heaven. … There is a lute tree in my garden. Every time I go back home from school, It’s not the time to eat lute, either too early or too late. This time I went home at the appropriate time, but the taste was not the taste I expected… May 05 Just Like HeavenJust Like Heaven, the name of a film produced by DREAMWORKS.
I'm so pleasantly surprised to find a film which can touch my string so deeply.
A lonely landscape architect (David Abbott) falls for the spirit of beautiful woman (Elizabeth Masterson), just like heaven, like the dream.
What touched my heart is not the love between them, though, but the more profound meaning behind their love.
What are we living for? This is a old but ever-presented question. For work? Elizabeth is such a woman. All the thing she cares is her work, without any entertainment, even love. After she had a crash, her spirit came out from her body, and met her love - David.
When you drop your work and care more about your family and friends, you may gain more. April 21 Friends While YoungAnother busy day.
Though I was tired, I didn't wanna sleep at all. Maybe I was TOO tired.
While lying in the bed after 24:00, I thought a lot, occasionally a familiar name came into my mind. Yes, I knew her. A friend I had known since childhood. But I didn't know whether I should describe her as my "friend". It's a long time I haven't been in touch with her.
We've known each other since we were 5 or 6 and always played together while young. Our MUMs werer good friends, too. We had a wonderful childhood together, but I was sorry that the childhood couldn't be once again.
That's my life, many friends became bygones because of my careless about them, and because the heavy loads of my growing.
New friends every day
But old friends...
April 18 My Wallet IS LOST...My lovely wallet was lost last week...
This is the second time I lost my wallet...
April 13 The Furthest Distance In The WorldThe Furthest Distance In The World
BY Tagore
The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death but when I stand in front of you yet you don't know that I love you The furthest distance in the world is not when I stand in front of you yet you can't see my love but when undoubtedly knowing the love from both yet cannot be togehter The furthest distance in the world is not being apart while being in love but when plainly can not resist the yearning yet pretending you have never been in my heart The furthest distance in the world but using one's indifferent heart to dig an uncrossable river for the one who loves you April 11 A LONG TIMEKeivin said that I haven't updated my blog for a long time. That's because, for one thing, there were to many things to be finished in the last week. And for another, I had no idea about what to write. By the way, I don't think one week is a very long time
 .Last night I have a long but wonderful talk with my roommates. We talked a lot, from study to love. And this morning many guys in other dorms complained about our chat because they didn't have a nice sleeping. Oh, I'm so sorry about thatv  , but we should have a talk. We haven't done that for about half a year. And That is, I think, a really long time.April 05 The Spring Passing ByHaven't been out for a long time.
Because of numerous complicated and time-costing projects, I nearly crouched by my computer from dawn to dusk. No time for going out.
There's no work remaining to do in our computer lab, So I went out for my supper. Occasionally, I find that all trees turns green and lovely flowers are everywhere. Immediately I perceived, that, it has been spring for a long time, but I didn't become aware of it at all!
The spring elapsed while I was still in winter.
I have never thought of wasting my time yet, and I work hard for my dream, but time do elapse silently, just as if I was wasting time, why?
Working too hard just means wasting time, right? Because You've missed other things which may be more important than your work, right?
Maybe.
So, no matter how important your work is, Don't forget that there are still a lot of things which worth dropping your work.
March 30 Be High With FailureEveryone failed a lot of times, Although you may not remember.
You got down when you firstly learn to walk.
You were almost drowned when the first time you tried to swim.
you kicked nothing when you swung the bat in your first baseball game.
...
Everyone failed, so what are you afraid of?
Failure is just the result, not all the thing you've done.
The thing worths most is the process when you try.
In which you may be happy and learn a lot.
Afraid of failing again?
No, don't be silly,another failure is just another experience.
When you get down to try the next time,
you can be more confident with yourself.
...
So, if you failed 1000 times.
Remember, just try the 1001st. time!
March 29 Seasons In the Sun,Do You Know the BackGround?
When I heard this song for the first time, I was deeply touched by the beautiful cantus. the scene firstly came into my mind is a countryside full with brightness and happiness. But with the time going on, what I perceived is not the happiness, but a bit of sorrow. How many people know the background? Now I'll tell you about it. It's a true story about a dying man. When you finish reading this story, you touch touch the true meaning of this song, and will find the true beauty. There are two young man -- we just call them A and C, and a girl, B. They are classmates in the high school. C is the closest and most trusted friend of A, and they become good friends when very young. Both of them fell in love with the pretty girl B. A was a handsome boy and active in the school, while C was shy and frank. Afrerward A and B fell in love with each other, leaving C alone. C knew their true love and bless them silently. As time went by, A and B got married. And later they had their baby, and later A went out for work, and later B must keep the whole family, and later C came to help B with her housework frequently, and later... In course of time, A found the secret. One was the people he loved, and one was his most trusted friend. He was very irritated and he kill them both... Immediately, he become penitential for his fool behavior, He went to the police and gave himself up. And his was sentenced to death and it will be executed the next Spring. In the prison, he wrote down this three short poetry to his trusted friend, gerontic father and loved wife,though two of them were not alive any longer. It's a true story which taken placed in1950's. And the meaning of the original name of the poetry was the dying man . |
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